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Volition




I wanted to say something like, I have yet to find a problem that wouldn't be solved with money. But that's not the entire truth. 

Money works even on heartbreak. You take up a new venture, or invest in something. Suddenly you have to learn a lot of new things, in a few months' time your life becomes unrecognizable from what it looked like when you loved that person. You will find you still have some love for them but you no longer want to act on it. You outgrew that. 

That's roughly the wheels on which my life runs. I am relatively happy because I live a life in which I am not a stranger, it is something my heart is in - even if it was also in other things that I would have much preferred. 

But had I never had to do all this, I would have been relatively happy as well - because if an affair broke my heart, it means my heart must have had been it it, which is the base for happiness. 

Kundera I think wrote somewhere that comparing diverging life paths like this never gets you anywhere. That there is no base for comparison. Well?
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